Mandibles

This song grapples with the feeling of hopelessness when awful things are happening- a broken relationship, a crisis of self, and the dispelling of the vision of the life you thought you were going to live. People keep telling you that it will be ok, that things will go back to normal, that you’re in the home stretch, but here’s the thing- you can’t be in the homestretch if the home you had is gone. You might have a less crappy time, but things will never be normal again.

Chorus:
There is no home
There is no road
There’s only here
and wherever I go
I walk alone
Where earth is hardest
Home is broken
Where the heart is

There are too many roads in this yellow wood
Too many signs that are marked with “You Should”
I am much too cold to choose
I would have liked to ask you

I thought I knew my path forward
But I didn’t know myself, I only knew your words
Now I have to choose
I should not need to ask you

Chorus

I filled up a page with how we were then
It’s just the same damn words over and over again
Fingers stained in blue
I could not bear to ask you

One foot before the other
Hanging by a thread
My journey runs before me
But I’m standing on the edge
The voices yell above me
That I’m in the Homestretch
But I’m just not there yet
But I’m just not there yet

Chorus

(Home is where the heart is
It’s gone now- shattered
Home is where the heart is
Like none of it mattered)